It’s Time To Pay Up…

 

This may be the time for all of us to realize that the American Dream is Dead. In reality, it was never alive. Everything we have been told, been taught, been promised by our leaders, from the beginning, was a lie. We have never been anything more than slaves, rebranded as employees. As consumers with a price on our heads. And when the system has drained us of everything it can take from us, we are discarded and forgotten about. Left to die without dignity or grace, stripped of all humanity.

To be an American, comes with a subscription fee, and it’s steep.

You want a roof over your head: Property isn’t free anymore. It’s all owned by someone and they need to make a profit so, Pay up!

You want water to drink, clean, cook: Water issn’t free anymore, someone owns it and they need to make a profit so, Pay up!

You want electricity for lites, heating, cooling, cooking, charging: Watts aren’t free, someone owns it all  and they need to make a profit so, Pay up!

You want to drive, you need a car: Pay up! You need gas and maintenance: Pay up! You want safe roads to travel: Pay up! You need a license for yourself and your car: Pay up! The Dealers, the shops, The Dept of Transportation all need a profit so, Pay up!

PLussss, we need insurance to cover everything: So Pay up, every fucking month until you die.

We neeedd jobs to do all the Paying up, but the government needs our money to take care of us all, so they take our money from us before we gat a chance to Pay up. So we Pay up twice or more.

Well fuck that, We’ll just move out to some open space and build our own home and live off the land.

NOPE!

Every square inch of this god forsaken country is owned by a handful of families. Those rich fuckwads make the rules for the rest of us. It’s now against the law to live off the live off grid unless you live in a Van Down By The River. But even then, don’t get caught.

We live in a pay to stay society. We were born here against our will and ever since we have been paying up, just to survive.

And Now, we all have to worry because white women can get shot in face while smiling and saying, ”I’m not mad bro.”

Fuck the lies we’ve been told. Fuck the centuries of extortion and exploitation. Fuck the Handful Of inbred families that have caused all of this for the last 300 years. 

THERE ARE MORE OF US THAN THERE IS OF THEM. TIME TO TAKE BACK WHAT WE HAVE ALL BEEN PROMISED. TO TAKE BACK EVERYTHING THAT’S BEEN EXTORTED FROM US.

TIME TO TARE DOWN THE SYTEM THAT WAS BUILT TO EXPLOIT US. TIME TO REBUILD A SYSTEM BUILT FOR ALL OF US. 

                                      TIME TO MAKE THE FUCKING RICH PAY UP!

Toxic Masculinity…

 When It comes to male anger, I understand. I spent much of my youth angry. At the world. At anyone that questioned me, or asked me for anything. It was always just under the surface. Ready to jump out and attack anyone within ear shot. 

I would raise my voice, throw things (golf clubs were my favorite item to launch), even punch a wall or two. I’m not proud of that behavior, however it did teach me much about myself. About my family, my childhood. I was raised to be a racist. To fear and dislike anyone that was different. Everyone I knew told off color bigoted jokes. The occasional N-word from the grand parents. I didn’t know any different.

There were only a handful of non-white people where I grew up, and most of them were Native Americans but they stuck mostly to the reservations. 

I never cared for the jokes or the derogatory language, but I never spoke up. I never pushed back at any of it. I would stand up for women because even though I was raised wrong, I was also raised to be a gentleman. At least toward women, which still seems odd to me. I never realized that all of the jokes were backed in hate, because i never saw the hate. When raised in this environment the jokes don’t sound like hate. Everyone laughs afterwords. 

At 19 I left home and moved across the country. My world exploded. I was surrounded by people that were not like myself. I soon realized that, these people probably don’t think those jokes and stereotypes were funny. I never repeated one again. It dawned on me that I was not raised right , and that everyone was basically the same. We’re all just trying to get by in this mess of a world. We all just want a better life for ourselves and our family and friends. 

The Summers Of My Discontent…

At long last I may have finally come to the source of my discontent.

Every memory I have of my childhood, is centered around me having to defend myself. Good, bad or otherwise, every memory I can conjure, the situations are of conflict, competition, or defensive. 

There was support, encouragement, but with a price. Always be the best. Be a leader not a follower. If you start something you finish, no matter what. No excuses, no failures, and threats of physical violence toward me for questioning any of it.

At the age of 11, my father showing me how a defensive lineman can get past an offensive lineman, by throwing me fae first into the turf. A fat and bloody lip, a bloody nose followed by a few tears, was met with, “ would you Ike me to give you something to cry about?”.

When I was 16 years old, at the evening dinner table. I was told that if I wanted to look like a fag that was my choice. In response to a newly pierced ear. 

I listened to years of stories, regaling the poor choices made by my father and uncles and grandfather, all with laughter and fondness as if being arrested and thrown in jail were just boys being boys. Then told to do as they say, not as they do. And then they’d laugh as they remembered the past glories.

So when I started getting into trouble, I assumed it would be met with the same nonchalant chuckles. And they were. And every time there was no real consequence, my need for attention of any kind made me escalate my behavior. Fortunately for me I was never caught doing some of the truly terrifying and horrible things I did. 

Thank the black baby jesus that i escaped. 

I left home at the first chance that presented itself. I relearned everything I was ever taught. How to act, how to treat people, what to believe in, who to believe in and everything I currently know and believe.

As it turns out, everything I hold dear is in complete opposition to my entire family. I’m the only one that ever left home. Coincidence? Probably not.

After a recent visit with my family, parents, sister, Aunt, my son thanked me for breaking the cycle.

I could not have been prouder of my Mr. Man. He’s no longer an innocent bystander, he is an Allie.

And suddenly all of my pain and angst, didn’t seem so painful. It may have been what needed to happen for my son to live a better life.

Defending The Undefendable…

 

Ok. So, I’m not from around here. I’m really hoping that someone might explain to me, how you defend a pedophile? Just to be clear, that’s someone(an ADULT) that is sexually attracted to CHILDREN.

What do they have to do for you, that you can over look child rape? Is it that none of the children are yours? Or you don’t have children of your own, so why would you care? Is your life so detached from what you see on a screen that you can compartmentalize a pedophile into normality? It’s just on the screen. It’s just the internet, social media? 

How many times were you dropped on your head as a child? Did someone hurt you and you’ve been holding on to it? So now you want to hurt others?

My brain, can not even imagine, a scenario that would find me defending a pedo. Not, if my very life depended on it.

Now, remember, I’m not from around here. Where I come from, Pedos are the lowest form of life. When they end up in jail or prison, the other inmates END them. Do you know why? Because inmates have children, and even inmates hate pedos. There is nothing, worse. At least where I come from. 

Explain it to slow, with small words. Like I’M FUCKING STUPID! Because I don’t, I can’t, understand.

What the actual fuck…?

 I remember, early on in high school, thinking to myself and my journal, that we are screwed. Ronald Reagan had just introduced his Trickle Down Theory. I knew then that this was a grift in order to steal our (the middle class and the poor’s) money and give it to the filthy rich scum that support politicians. The real rulers of the “free” world.   

But I lived in a red state. I didn’t know that at the time. Honestly I didn’t really pay much attention to the world. It seemed so large and far away from my life that it wouldn’t ever matter to me. I quickly learned the error of my ways. What happens in the US has a profound impact on the entire world.

Fast forward 50ish years.  Everything I was ever taught was a White Washed Lie. All of it. It was all a lie in order to rewrite white history and erase the horrors and atrocities perpetuated by white colonizers.   To erase the fact that white people  stole land form natives. Instead of learning something from them and working together, they murdered, raped, pillaged and plundered. Taking everything in their path, never once thinking about the consequences of their greed.

 I digress…

Now, Politicians are still trying and succeeding at stealing our money, our health care, our social security our Medicare; basically everything they can get their greedy fucking fingers on, they are going to steal, and there is nothing we can do about it. So FUCK us!

And then, somehow(people are retards) they convinced most all of us,  it’s the brown and black people that are keeping us poor. Not the handful of folks that live on mountains of money. 

Right? Isn’t that the way of Emerca. Power and excess for the rich - While the rest of the 98% struggle to survive. Literally, struggle. It’s 2025 people, and we are still taking the scraps with an “Oh thank you, this is too much for us unworthy peasants.”  So we let them take more.

Now we have the National Guard and military personnel in our streets, racially profiling everyone that isn’t white. No Due Process, No Serving the public’s best interests, mo mercy. Attaching US citizens, all while making bounties on our heads.

What. The. Actual. FUCK is going on?

Cruelty is the reason and the purpose, and the goal. Cruelty, against everyone that isn’t white.

I recently started looking into some of my families history. (quick side bar: I was unknowingly, raised to be a racist) What I found is that my family has only been in the US since 1887. That’s it. Now my family has conveniently forgotten that fact. My great grand parents were from Czechoslovakia. My great grand mother was still alive when I was born. She died in 1970.

Now much of my family are trump people. I am NOT! It breaks my heart to see them continue to vote against their own best interest, when I know that they are not mean or evil, but, merely mislead by the very people they trust to look out for their best interests. However, they believe all of the propaganda. It breaks my heart.   

My own family, that were raised by immigrants, now want other immigrants to be deported.  To be denied the very rights that they all enjoy. 

My therapist and I are happy to report that I have broken that cycle of misled anger and abuse. I can see the world and people for what they are. I left home as soon as I was able,  and I grew. I learned. I traveled and observed  others. And everywhere I have ever been,  I realized that we are all the same. We all have the same want’s and desires. A better life. 

Simple.

A few of us want more from life. More from humanity. Not just the same status quo. We’re better than that and you should be too. It’s not hard to be a better person. It takes energy to hate.

 FREE UKRAINE      FREE PALESTINE     FREE AMERICA 

                                                                         FUCK TRUMP 

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